I have loved Tom for over 30 years and I always will love him. We weren't always together but I never stopped loving him. There always seemed to be something in the way either he was involved with someone else or something but I always believed that someday we would have a life together. I kept in touch with his family and friends for along time so I would at least know he was okay. Then I stopped because it just hurt too much. I moved to Virginia and started a new life without him. Not one day ever when by that I didn't think of him.

Then one day in 2000 his sister found me and wrote a letter to me. In her letter she told me that Tom was alone and that he was trying to find me. I called him and after talking for hours we realized we still had feelings for each other. I left everything I had in Virginia and moved back to New York so we could finally be together.

It was wonderful I loved him so much and this time he really loved me back. He was so loving and we made a home together. Tom was such a loving and giving person. When he really loved someone it was forever. Funny he never called me by my name. it was alway My Honey, even in his phone phone my job number was under the H's for Honey.

We were very happy but I had a hard time adjusting to city life again. I loved country living and hated the crowded nasty city. I tried really hard to make the best of it yet Tom knew I was unhappy living in New York. Then in 2004 Tom said okay lets get out of New York. He had some property in North Carolina where some old friends from New York had moved. Tom surprised me and said we were going down to Carolina for Labor Day weekend. When we were there Tom said we going to lunch but instead he took me to pick out a house. I was so happy I always wanted a yellow house with a white picket fence and I found one that weekend.

We were going to move down there in February because Tom had to wait until then to retire from his job. All of my dreams were coming true. I never thought Tom would ever leave New York and his family but he was to start a new life with me. We also decided to get married in Febuary nothing big just go to a small church and take our vows in front of God.

I moved back to Virginia so I could start training for a new job. Once the training was complete I would be working in North Carolina. I missed Tom so much but I knew that once we moved to Carolina we would be together forever. We spoke on the phone and on some weekends I would drive up there to be with him.

Then one Sunday it was November 14th I didn't hear from Tom. I tried calling him but there was no answer. I kept calling and leaving messages but I knew in my heart something was wrong. I called his family and they haven't heard from him. I was up all night and finally I called his sister again. I told her she needed to go over to his house and see if he was there. They had to get the police to break in and there he was on the floor. Once they got him to a hospital we found out he had a brain aneurysm. I got some clothes and started driving up there. His sister called me as I was driving and told me the doctors said there was no hope he was brain dead. I was driving 100 miles an hour when she told me that and I almost went into the wall. I just kept praying it wasn't true but once I got to the hospital the doctor told me that same thing. I stayed with my Honey and never left his room until Wedneday morning November 17th the doctors took him off the respirator. I stayed with Tom and watched him die. I held his hand and felt it getting colder and colder. Then I just held him in my arms as he left and I promised him I would love him forever and I would always keep his memory alive.


So now here I am back in Virginia all alone again. No Tom, no happy life, no more dreams and no home. Everything is gone except the wonderful memories that nobody can ever take from me.

Until we meet again Honey.....