Always & Forever

I know how much you loved putting up our Christmas tree so I made sure you would still have one this year. I miss you so much tonight. I keep remembering our Christmas Eves together. You would always bring home a bottle of champagne for us. It was so nice just the two of us. You always said Christmas Day was for family but Christmas Eve was for us.  So tonight Tom I will light candles and sit by the tree by myself just like we used to do and think of all the nights we were together. Thank God I have those memories honey.
 I Love And MissYou So Much.....

John Boy now has our Charlie Brown Christmas Tree and I know that makes you happy. He was always your favorite and he was there whenever we needed his help. I remember when I wanted the apartment painted all you did was pick up the phone and the next day there was John Boy and David ready to paint. Even when you needed help moving some of the furniture around there was John Boy and David ready to work. Then sadly enough when I had to move everything from our apartment after I lost you who was there………..    Yes, John Boy and David.

You were the other half of me.  We  were never far apart, Until the angels called you home. Now you're living in my heart. You'd want me now to carry on,  But my love won't fade away, And a glorious reunion, I know honey we will have someday.

One heart of gold stopped beating,
Two shining eyes at rest,
God broke my heart to prove,
He only takes the best.
God knows you had to leave me,
But you did not go alone,
For part of me went with you,
The day He took you home.
To some you are forgotten
To others just part of the past,
But to me who loves and lost you,
The memory will always last.

Missing You
No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the lonliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one see me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I will never stop loving you
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so, Tom,
And I always will!!

Birthdays are a time for celabration                    
Not a time for tears
Today I will celabrate your life and
All the memories we share
I will remember the mornings I surprised
You with Happy Birthday signs on the mirror
I remember how much you loved the
Dodger charm I gave you one year
I will always remember how happy you were when
Mom and Marge would be with us and we would
Celabrate your birthday together
You were always so happy when your three M’s
Were together with you
And so honey on this special day I wish you
            Happy Birthday
I will love you always & forever

                       Mary  

Tom loved sports so much. The first thing he did every morning was check the scores. His favorite teams were Dodgers, Celtics, and Giants. Football was his true love above all other sports.  One year for Christmas I bought him a Giant Football Player doll that would sing “Are You Ready For Some Football.”  He thought it was the best gift I ever gave him and he kept it next to him on the couch on Sundays. If I would sleep in on a Sunday he would put the doll in bed with me and play it over and over until I would get up. Tom would call all of his Giant fan friends on game day and play the doll’s song over the phone to them.

Watching a football game with Tom was so much fun. Whenever a player would miss a catch he would tell me that he would have caught that ball in his back pocket. Then he would tell me about every play he made during his playing days. Even though I heard the stories a hundred times I would listen again and again…….

Tom also loved horse racing and he always enjoyed placing a few wages. He loved going to Belmont to watch the races. We would go to the picnic area and find a table just for the two of us. Tom would always get Sam The Bugler to come over to play for us. Win or lose we always had a good time. 

Tommy was the League MVP in 1968,he could & did whatever he wanted to on the field.Ran & threw TDs,Intercepted passes,snapped the ball on punts,then ran downfield & made the tackle.When his team was tied late in a game that meant the B/Q
Champ. the coach told qb Quinn "I don't care what play u call,just make sure Tabala gets the ball",1 play,60 yds later Gpt. became undeafeated Champs.I would like his family to understand how grateful I am for knowing this Cool-handed Crusader.Just as he is still your father,brother,friend & teammate,to me 38 years later,he is still one of my kids

Tom had a heart of gold and would do anything for those he loved. He was a loving and kind person.  He loved life and lived it to the fullest. We were going to spend the rest of our lives together.  We waited a long time for the time to be right to start our plans. We had picked out a house in September and we were going to build our home in North Carolina. We were going to move to North Carolina in February. We were going to marry and move into our new home but God took Tom away from me before we could start our life together.
Now I am so alone without him and I miss him so much. All of the dreams we had are now gone.  I have wonderful memories of our time together and I will always cherish them.  

Here it is Labor Day weekend. What a difference a year makes.  This time last year we were in North Carolina together planning our future. We found the yellow house with a white picket fence that I always wanted. We were so happy about starting our new life in Carolina,

And now there is nothing except the emptiness I feel without you. Everything is gone now. All of our dreams and plans have been taken away.  It hurts so much when I think of how happy we were and fast it was taken away.

I promise you honey someday I will be in Carolina just like you wanted. If I have to work two jobs I will save so I can buy a home just as we planned. Then there will be just the three of us.  I know Joey, Margaret and Rob will do whatever they can to help me because they know how much you were looking forward to moving there. Rob bought a boat that he named Hey Pal in honor of your memory.

I miss you more and more each day. Everyone tells me that it will get better but they have no idea how I feel. You will be in my heart forever and I will love you always.